Dwell on these things…

Philippians 4:8-9

Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable,

whatever is right, whatever is pure,

whatever is [e]lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence

and if anything worthy of praise, [f]dwell on these things.

 The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me,

practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.

I love this verse! I didn’t always do this and I wish that I had learned to do this sooner!

When we go through trying and hard times it is our nature to look for someone or something that shows us we are not alone in our pain and suffering. I think that is why a lot of artist’s lyrics are filled with pain and heartache, jaded cadences of what they wished life would have been like. You would think that since they made it so far in their careers and have lots of money and fame that their lyrics couldn’t possibly be about them or their lives but I beg to differ with you!

Look for example at the pop culture sensation, Rihanna and her song “Love The Way You Lie”,

Its hauntingly beautiful tone is instantly liked but if you actually read into her lyrics it is so bittersweet! I have been where she has when it comes to a man that we have given everything to putting their hands on us but what is she teaching this generation with her lyrics?!

How sad is it that she would be so jaded by life that the person that wrote this song would say that “even Angles have their own wicked schemes”?

According to Wikipedia the song,  “Love the Way You Lie” is the second single from American rapper Eminem‘s seventh studio album Recovery. American singer Skylar Grey was inspired to write and record the demo with Alex da Kid when she felt that she was in an abusive romantic relationship with the music industry. Eminem then wrote verses to the track and chose Barbadian singer Rihanna to sing the chorus; the collaboration was influenced by their past experiences of domestic violenceRecording sessions were held in Ferndale, Michigan, and Dublin, Ireland. The song is a midtempo hip hop balladwith a pop refrain. Backed by guitar, piano and violin, it describes two lovers who refuse to separate despite being in a love–hate abusive relationship.”

I am a lyric fanatic! The words speak to me and help me to voice the many things that I am feeling and puts into words those emotions in a way that I doubt I ever could! Yet because of this obsession with music and lyrics I have to be careful what I dwell on when I am listening to music. I can easily find genres that can relate to my moods when I am angry, annoyed, bitter, dispondant, apathetic or hurt. The thing I found when listening to those songs that can relate to my mood is that I tend to not only feel the same but often times start feeling even worse!

Could it be that the Bible could actually be relevant today when it comes to the above verse?!?!

(Pardon my sarcasm! =)

Since I am learning that what we take in can have a lasting effect on our thoughts, actions, emotions and habits, I am learning that I need to set my thoughts and actions on the things above. That includes what music I listen to!

I know your instant thought may be of hymns being sung in church when you were little but let me assure you that their are some AMAZING artists that have taken trying and hard times in their lives and put uplifting twists to the lyrics to help a person see that Christian music doesn’t have to be dull and boring or fake and white washed.

Yes Jesus Love’s me is an amazing song but do we really know how much He loves us?!?!

And don’t get me wrong hymns are amazing source of inspiration! Did you know that the hymn “It is Well With My Soul” was written by a grieving father?!

” In a late change of plan, he sent the family ahead while he was delayed on business concerning zoning problems following the Great Chicago Fire. While crossing the Atlantic, the ship sank rapidly after a collision with a sea vessel, the Loch Earn, and all four of Spafford’s daughters died. His wife Anna survived and sent him the now famous telegram, “Saved alone . . .”. Shortly afterwards, as Spafford traveled to meet his grieving wife, he was inspired to write these words as his ship passed near where his daughters had died.

Bliss called his tune Ville du Havre, from the name of the stricken vessel.”

“When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.”

“It Is Well With My Soul”

So don’t discredit hymns altogether! There are many stories like this and how a hymn came to be. Yet I think that they knew better than we how to find the good and think on those things.

I want to give a list of songs that have helped me through my trials, heart ache and fears! I want to be an encouragement and proof that when you think on good, right and noble things your attitude starts to change and you can begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel!

The songs below do not belong to me. They are for the sole purpose of encouraging others and I have no rights to them what so ever.

How Deep the Fathers Love by Joy Williams

Your Not Alone by Meredith Andrews

Let Your Light Shine by Bethany Dillon

My Heart, Your Home by Watermark

If You Want Me To by Ginny Owens

 

 

Come As You Are by Pocket Full of Rocks

Untitled Hymn by Chris Rice

Damaged by Plumb

Come  and Rest by Considering Lily

The Last Night by Skillet

Your Guardian Angle by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Beautiful by Mercyme

 

 

“Don’t you know who you are?

You are more than the choices you have made,

You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,

You are more than the problems you create.”

You Are More by Tenth Ave. North

The Proof of Your Love by For King and Country

10,000 Reasons by Matt Redman

Angel by Your side by Francesca Battestelli

Stained Glass Masquerade by Casting Crowns

Does Anybody Hear Her? by Casting Crowns

“But are we happy plastic people, under shiny plastic steeples,

with walls around our weakness, and smiles to hide our pain

But if the invitations open to every heart that has been broken,

maybe then we’ll close the curtain on the stain glass masquarade.”

Hang On by Plumb

Undo Me by Jennifer Knapp

Beloved by Tenth Ave. North

Let it go by Tenth Ave. North

Middle of Your Heart by For King and Country

Everything by Lifehouse

How Many Times by Plumb

Only Hope by Switchfoot

Hope Now by Addison Roads

You never let go of me by Jeremy Camp

“There’s gotta be another way out
I’ve been stuck in a cage with my doubt
I’ve tried forever getting out on my own
Every time I do this my way
I get caught in the lies of the enemy
I lay my troubles down
I’m ready for you now”

On My Own by Ashes Remain

 

Busted Heart (Hold one to me) by For King and Country

Promise of a Lifetime by Kutless

All Of Me by Matt Hammitt

All This Time by Britt Nicole

Hold my Heart by Tenth Ave. North

From the Inside Out By Phillips Craig and Dean

Center of it all by Chris August

Redeemed by Big Daddy Weave

Yesterday by Matthew West

Gravity by Sara Bareilles

Remind Me Who I am by Jason Gray

There are so many more I am sure that I am forgetting! This list is just a small start of all the amazing songs that have gotten me through such rough times and reminded me that I am not alone!

I hope this list helps you to find the TRUE, RIGHT and PURE! Dwell on these and your perspective of life will being to bring forth a hope that the negative things are in the past and you have an awesome future ahead of you!

God Bless!!!

Letter to “Mini-me”

A sweet encouraging woman responded to my blog post

Sensitive material- Read with Caution and Grace.

In her comment she said a profound thing that I had never even thought about…

 “You made the statement that you wanted your readers to know that you’re not an innocent person.I too, felt that way for many years. Though I wasn’t raped, I was molested by my stepfather, who was really a daddy to me.

I remember when I was going through counseling, that my counselor made the comment that he had stolen my innocence, and I straight up told her that I had NEVER been innocent. I really felt that way, until the Lord began to speak to me and show me something different. Beloved, even though you may have had sex prior to this occurrence, you were still INNOCENT.

One of the scriptures that I clung to (ok – I still cling to it, as there are a lot of missing memories still) is found in Psalm 51:6 – Behold, You desire truth in the innermost being, And in the hidden part You will make me know wisdom. (NASB) My friend, so many times those of us who have been victimized blame ourselves for what happened, but that only creates more damage to our soul and spirit. In order to receive complete healing and deliverance, you must know and acknowledge the truth.

For some crazy reason, it’s always easier for us to blame ourselves for what happened, than it is to place the blame where it belongs. It is good for us to acknowledge what we did wrong, confess it, repent and move on with our lives. But we must also step back and look at what happened to us through someone else’s eyes. Beloved, go back and re-read your story, only don’t look at yourself, imagine that this is your daughter’s story, or a friend’s story. How would you respond to that child or friend? What comfort would you offer that person? Do you find that you have more compassion for others than for yourself? Then, after you think of it, write a response to yourself (you don’t have to publish it if you don’t want to, but do write the response) as though you were your daughter, your friend, or even a complete stranger.”

 

Tears streamed down my face as I read the words that she wrote I knew that she was right, that God had given her the words that he knew would touch my heart and help me to continue the healing process. You see my name means Beloved… whether she knew that or not God did. And God knows how I have struggled with the meaning of my name. I have loved it and yet not felt worthy of the name for to many years of my life.

My mind repeatedly goes to the past and the “I wish I hadn’t done that…”, “I wish that had been the only time..”, “I wish I didn’t have such a messed up life..”,  “I wish I could change that..” and “I wish I didn’t feel this way.” But life can’t be lived with “I wishes” and “What if’s”

It is my life, it is my past and I want to be free!

Cheryl mentioned in her comment that I had made sure everyone knew I wasn’t innocent and that this statement wasn’t true. She said that I was being to hard on myself and she challenged me to write a response to my post as if it was my daughter, a friend or even a complete stranger.

I couldn’t imagine it happening to my daughter at this point because I would probably want to go out and find the prick and cut off his pecker!

So what would I say?

What would I say to myself? The young me that just couldn’t seem to find love no matter how hard she looked….

I would tell her I’m sorry! I would tell her that from childhood what others said about her was wrong! I would tell her that she is not fat, stupid, ugly, unlovable, obstinate, annoying, rebellious,  or hateful. What others said were all lies and you believed them because it was all you were hearing and I’m sorry!

You truly are beautiful and have a wonderful spirit that loves others and seeks to find the best in others even when they don’t deserve it! You discerned when things were not right and for that you were shunned by your father unless you took his manipulative side. You so desired his love, attention and affection but you only got it when you were doing things according to him. I’m sorry!

People touched you in ways that they never should have and I want you to know its not your fault! It is not healthy or a correct way to show love and you grew up thinking that by letting others touch you that it showed them you cared for them and loved them. These people are to blame for this and it is ok to be angry with them. Just try not to take it out on the ones that truly love you and help you, like your mom! She would give anything to take away the pain that you are feeling because she has been there too. She just doesn’t know how to tell you because you always lash out at her. She will be your biggest cheerleader and help you through the most painful experience in your life! This experience is what will bring you back to God the most and he will show you miracles that will truly change your world!

I also want you to know that God loves you! All those times you went in Sunday school and  got “saved”, He knows! He has held you in his arms and weeps for you and the injustices that were done to you. It was not His plan, His doing or His will for your life. God gave people a free will and sometimes bad people inflict their will on people.

But know this, God wants to restore those years and give you back your joy! All you have to do is give it all to Him! Give Him each and every injustice, each and every time you were taken advantage of and each face that did you wrong and lay it at the foot of the cross! There is a man named Jesus that died for you before you were even thought of by humans. He knew that you would need a savior! He knew that you would need a friend! You know Jesus, He held your heart from a young age and He will always love you no matter what happens!

Mini Me please know that I love you!

I am sorry that I have held all of this against you for far to long!

I am learning to take the things I grew up thinking were truths and accessing them to see for sure if they hold up to God and His word. Unfortunately most of the things I grew up learning and thinking are very, very flawed! But I am growing, I am forgiving, and I am feeling freer with each passing day!

It is a struggle to let people in, I know, but mini-me let them in! Even if they end up hurting you in the end, not all of them will! And you will find some amazing friends that will help you down your journey, they will cry with you, they will hold you and encourage you to continue the fight! Please tell them when you are weak so they can pray for you because we can’t do it on our own no matter how much we wish we could! God didn’t make us to do life alone but to come together in a healthy and wholesome way. Mini-me, don’t hold people at arms length and only show them so much because you are afraid of what they might think! God brought them into your life for a reason and as long as you are not finding the friends that you had previously that just took advantage of you and wanted to party with you then you will find good people that God ordains to be in your life.

And most importantly… that night in the hotel, the other times that you said no and the guys didn’t listen to you or grant you your request to stop and let you go… It is not your fault! I’m so sorry that I put you in those places because I was rebelling against everything in my life. I’m so sorry that I blamed your naivety and thirst for love for why these things happened. They were bad men who took advantage of you because they saw something good in you and wanted to exploit it, crush it and kill it! Its what the Devil does best but he has failed with you because you never allowed yourself to be crushed, just bruised, you lived through these horrible things and have come out on the other side!

Mini-me… not all men are bad! Let God direct your steps and trust Him in this area of your life.  I know that you are afraid to let yourself love because you don’t want to go through the same things again but you are taking the right steps to healing. You are seeking after God and His will for your life. God has protected you from so much and these last 5 years have been lonely but it has been the best thing for you. To do things on your own because its been to long since arms have encircled you and held you only leads to the pain and heartache from before. One night in the arms of a stranger is not worth the leaps and bounds you have come down the path of healing! Its not worth it!

So Mini-me… Please know that you are loved, you are precious and you are free! You are a fighter and I know you are tired. I know that you don’t know what to fight against or for anymore! Let God fight for you! Give it all to Him and watch life unfold!

Love you more than mostest!!

Ten Tips for Newlyweds.

One of my bestest friends wrote this blog and I love it!! I am definitely not  in this stage of my life or anywhere close to having someone in my life but the wisdom and insight is so good! It is perfect for any stage your marriage might be in.

It is also perfect for singles as well! It can be a starting point for a new relationship and like she says not something that you jump into and do each step the same day but a process that you can begin.

Last year I helped at my churches youth group and with a DNOW youth retreat weekend. It was on purity and how to be able to choose a life of purity you have to have a vision and plan of what that is going to look like. In just the same way I am learning that I may not have a knight in shining armor knocking on my door to sweep me off my feet but until then I need to get a plan and vision of what kind of wife I want to be, what kind of husband God has for me and what kind of marriage I want.

I didn’t do any of the above and I settled for a man that gave me the electrical current of desire but when push came to shove wasn’t willing to do what it took to make the marriage work. He chose drugs and alcohol over me and it has taken me about 5 years to realize that it wasn’t my fault he chose those things over me. I am not perfect but I am worthy of a man that will love, cherish, protect and provide for me.  Our relationship was build purely on hormones and the endorphin’s that flowed not on a solid love for each other built on the foundation of a love for God and His desires for our lives.

So I highly recommend reading Charissa’s blog if you are like me and didn’t have a good roll model of what love and marriage should look like!

Or if you are living out a wonderful marriage and just want insight from someone else that after a year of marriage is still head over heals in love with her husband also!

 

Ten Tips for Newlyweds..

Good ‘Ole Boy Judges in South Carolina

So I have never used my blog as a platform to rant and rave about the injustices of the justice system but I am going to do it today!

We got a call from my brother yesterday who lives in Columbia, SC and he was asking for prayer and our thoughts to go with him as he went to court yesterday.

Before I go into the facts of the court and why he was there let me just tell you a little bit about my brother. He is 23 years old and has lived on his own since he was 18 years old. He put himself through Jamestown Community College where he took their sound system tech program. He then got a scholarship to Columbia International University for Biblical Studies and got two years of college for the price of one because they saw his ambition and drive to put himself through the community college without any student loans.

When he moved down to South Carolina he got involved in Young Life, a program that goes into local schools and mentors teens. Each volunteer “staff” member is required to take a group of teens under their wing and mentor them through the difficult years of high school. Jon, my brother, has taken this mission very seriously! When he started he knew that he would only be at CIU for 2 years because he had already taken 2 years in New York. This hasn’t kept him from keeping the promise of seeing these guys he mentors through until the head off to college. He spends his evenings doing Young Life events Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and usually most Saturdays.

He has a passion for music! My brothers ultimate dream would be to have a recording studio in Israel and have that be his ministry. He loves making songs on his computer with his recording programs and he is very talented at it. He has always had a heart for worship as well and always been involved in whatever church he’s going to’s worship team. This commitment takes up his Thursday nights and all morning on Sundays.

All of the above is just volunteering things that he does. He does not get paid for any of it and frankly it takes a lot of his time but also his money. He takes the guys out to eat when they call him with problems so that they have a safe environment to talk to him about problems or things going on in their lives. He spends gas money picking each one up to take them to movies, sporting events or whatever other thing the guys come up with that they want to do. He would never tell you that he resents all the time and money that he spends on the guys because he does it out of unconditional love. He doesn’t see them as a burden because he is thankful for 2 guys when he was in high school that took him and his guy friends under their wings and mentored them. Even me as his over protective sister used to get mad at him and tell him the boys, who come from many different home lives, mostly broken homes, were taking advantage of him and his generosity.

My brother is very quiet, shy and reserved. Volunteering for Young Life has brought him out of his shell and given him the confidence he has needed. Jon is not a big talker and he sometimes dislikes this about himself. He feels that he doesn’t always know what to say or get upset about things that are not right. He would say that sometimes he wished he was just a little more like his hot headed sister who seemed to him to know exactly what to say in circumstances. I would laugh and tell him I always wished I was more like him! He may not say a lot but when he does speak its profound and people listen!

My brother not only does all of this volunteer work but he has a “day” job too! He is a supervisor for one of the work crews for Superior Landscaping. He goes to work most mornings as early as 5:30-6am depending on the time of year and usually wouldn’t get home until late in the afternoon. His days would consist of mowing, hedge-trimming, and all that goes with landscaping jobs! I remember how one summer Jon had poison ivy for the whole summer! His body was very susceptible to it and while most people would find a job that wouldn’t put themselves in contact with something of this nature, Jon plugged away, caked on ointment, and did his job like a trooper! He is totally loyal and would stand by you in the eye of a hurricane if he thought that’s what you would need!

All of the above is just to give you a picture of the amazing man that my brother is so you can fully understand the injustice that played out yesterday…

On October 31st at around rush hour traffic my brother was coming home from work and thinking about all that he needed to get done before he took his mentor guys trick or treating. As he was coming around the curve known to many South Carolinian’s as “Malfunction Junction”  something happened and he ended up in a fender bender with the car ahead of him. As they pulled over to assess the damage  Im sure my brothers heart was squeezing with the realization that he had not reinstated his insurance after he let it lapse several months before.

I had been living down there with him and while Jon was laid off last winter, I was working at a furniture store. In February as I was coming back from a trip to my sisters I got a call from the owner telling me that it wasn’t going to work out for me to work there. I asked for an explanation as to why and he had said he hoped that I wouldn’t need an explanation  Hello?!? I had just gotten them a 3000$ sale the day before and they thought I wouldn’t care to know why I wouldn’t be working there…. But I digress…

My brother and I were not only living paycheck to paycheck but we were coming up short in every aspect. Several times I went to the food bank so that we would have a meal for the next couple weeks. It was a very challenging time for the both of us and unannounced  to me my brother let his insurance go so that we could pay the other bills. Im sure in his mind he justified it as he was a good driver and  hadn’t gotten in an accident yet so what would it hurt to go a month or two without insurance until we got back on our feet.

Well his month or two turned into several more than that when you have a schedule as crazy as my brothers. He just could never get enough time during the day time hours to  call the insurance company as typically its not just a short 5-10 minute conversation that you can have during a break at work.

As he steps out of the car to assess the damage he doesn’t know what to do… Should I tell the people I just hit that I let my insurance lapse?? They look at both cars and realize that my brothers car took the brunt of the damage with their car only sustaining a few minor scratches and their license plate being dented. When the cops arrive they of course ask for insurance information and being the honest and upstanding person that my brother is he tries to explain that he had let his lapse. The police immediately tell him they are impounding his car, issuing him a ticket for no insurance and for driving to fast for the conditions.

Of course my brother doesn’t tell my mom or me any of this till the day of court!

Now up north in the small town of Bath, when you have to go to traffic court you represent yourself and get a chance to explain things to the judge and possibly ask for a reduction. I guess in the south it is guilty until proven innocent and you don’t get to plead your case… its either guilty or not guilty.

When my brother went before the judge and explained what happened and why he was without insurance, the judge looked at him and asked Jon, “Have you taken any drugs or drank anything in the past 24 hours that would keep you from understanding what’s going on here?”

My brother who hasn’t done even the slightest thing even close to drugs and gets loopy with just one benadryl, looked at him shocked. He told the judge no that he had definitely not taken anything or drank and just wanted to plead his case and see if there was anyway to get it reduced and his license reinstated.

The judges response was to tell my brother that his license was going to be suspended!

What judge would do that??

I could understand someone who was constantly in and out of his court for various charges and violations but my brother has had maybe one ticket on his record since he started driving when he was 17 years old! I just can’t believe a judge who would completely disregard someone who was pleading their case and ask them what drugs they were on or what they had been drinking!

My brother knew that he was guilty and was explaining that finance wise it would help if the fine could be reduced.

Was it because he wasn’t judicially savvy enough to know exactly what to ask for?

Was it because he didn’t know that he had the right to request a reduction based on his income?

What is wrong with this country when we penalize the very people that are working so hard to make it a better place?

Don’t get me wrong… There should be consequences for my brother and his actions but making him pay over 400$ and suspend his license so that he can’t get to work?

How is that helping society?

My brother in Israel on a school trip in 2010

Daily Prompt #3

Write a summary of the book you’ve always wanted to write for the back cover of its dust jacket.

Have you ever made a mistake and wondered what the long-lasting effects would be?

Kierra made such a mistake when she met and fell for the bad guy. Her parents had always warned her against someone like him but she was rebelling against everything that they had said to prove them wrong… or was she? Keirra just wanted to learn from life and to find someone that would love her as much as she wanted to pour her love out on them. She was always having to learn from life the hard way, the painful way…

Travel down this journey with Keirra and find out how one night of excruciating pain and lose of her innocence changed her life forever. Learn how a choice can effect your life 2, 5, or even 10 years later.

How did she find herself in this trouble?

When did it all start?

And how does she get herself out of this twist of events that could put her in prison for 20 years?

Writer’s block…

Have you ever wanted to write, truly wanted to get things down that were running through your head but you just didn’t know where to start… This is me lately!

I have 3-4 things in my drafts that I have started but either due to time constraints or just not being ready to finish the process of writing them they just sit in the draft folder…

Today I woke up and just have an on edge feeling. My poor mom keeps asking me what’s wrong and I wish I could pin point why I am feeling the way that I am.

I think part of it is work related. I just started a fairly new job as the front desk clerk at a hotel and though I catch on to new jobs very quickly I feel that I am being pushed and expected to know more than I do right now. I have made some errors and they feel that I should have known what to do in the circumstances. I come home and share my frustrations … I truly love my mom and step-dad because they are my support system, they are my fighters, they are my bulldogs! Yet their opinion is marred by their closeness to me and loyalties sometimes. They want to protect me and not have me go through these trials that I am right now. I know that I am at this job for a reason and it makes it hard when they say I shouldn’t put up with the way things are at work. I want to learn to be content somewhere but I don’t know how. Do I have the feelings of discontent because its not where Im supposed to be? Or am I just discontent in my life and where Im at so it comes through in all aspects of my life?

These are hard questions to answer and I am the kind of person that likes answers and things all laid out nice and neat.

Another reason I could be on edge is the holiday season fast approaching. I have always desired a love for the holidays however it always seemed to elude me… I always desired family traditions and a picture perfect time with family and friends… are my expectations to high in this dysfunctional world?

It feels like the holidays are driven now by commercials for the newest, latest and greatest gadget that you just have to get. Retail stores are opening now ON Thanksgiving to give us something to do instead of spending time with the dysfunctional families that we have come to despise spending time with. And people are acquiring more only to become even more discontent with the things that they already have and disillusioned into thinking that they need something more to fill that hole that was once content with the gadget.

Or it could be the fact that I am still legally married to a man that didn’t want me or to get the help that it would take to keep us together and he still has that hold on me even after 5 1/2 years! I have served him papers 3 times but to no avail I am still stuck in this holding pattern and it is getting so old.

So when I have these on edge feelings and want to just run away from it all…. how do I effectively identify which one is making me feel this way?

How do I rest in the One who knows all these feelings and has only the best for me in mind?

How do I depend on these arms to have me when I can’t see them?

When I can’t feel their protective love wrapping me in an embrace and telling me that it will all be ok?

How do I stop the flow of tears wondering if I will forever be alone because of a bad decision that I made, gambling on love and loosing everything?

Thankfulness #8

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Today I am thankful for the life long friendship of my friend Kristen! We have been through so much together and I can’t imagine life without her! The other day she had surgery and even though it was outpatient you still worry and wonder… Does she know how much I love her? Does she know how amazingly strong I think she is to have withstood all life threw at her and how she has overcome?! Does she know that I’m so thankful for all she has done for me and how I never would have made it through without her love and support? I try telling all my friends when I say goodbye that I love them because you are never promised tomorrow but how many times do we skip saying the other things because we assume they know it or we just never get the chance. I don’t want to ever wonder if she knew what she means to me so I am saying it now! I got to go down and surprise her on my day off and it was the best day off I have had in a really long time! I drove more today than I got sleep as I worked an overnight shift but it was so worth spending some precious tine together. We don’t always have deep meaningful conversations but I feel that we have been through so much together that we can just be together and know what each other is thinking and feeling… But that again is not a reason to keep silent and not tell your friends that you love and cherish what they mean to you! Do it before it’s too late because like I said we are never promised tomorrow!

This picture is a wall mural I did for her in May! It was so much fun and the biggest project I have ever attempted. Sadly I couldn’t find any pics of the two of us together.. Lots of her adorable dogs and kids but I definitely think we will have to remedy that next week when we have our Thanksgiving feast!!!